There is always a day when I believe I make so many mistakes and the work doesn’t move forward, then bam, usually the next day, the brush travels itself showing me exactly what I am missing. Days like that are golden, but then there are always days before the golden day when it seems nothing is happening and everything is going wrong. Since I know about the days like that, it becomes easier to keep my focus on my work.
Keeping my full attention surrounded by distractions is my biggest challenge.
Originally written on 8-14-17
I was deciding for a long time what I should paint on the left side of the painting.
I knew that there is going to be a human torso in half movement as if it were in the mid flight pushed by this snow-storm-like white, but the area was too flat and I could not get my imagination rolling. Something was missing. I could not find the lines I was looking for.
After staring at it for hours I had to put the painting away from my eyesight. My brain was just not working. I took The Rain Angel out.
It was obvious to me that there was something missing in The Turquoise Angel. So I went to work on The Rain Angel instead or rather, I went to work on its sister painting My Mom as the Guardian Angel of Angels (at the time I called it The Red Painting).
As it usually happens in my process I put a painting I work on on my easel and spend a lot of time observing it in light, looking at lines and checking if I have missed something while I was painting it. One thing led to another and I found myself taking photographs of The Rain Angel and The Red Painting together. I needed to figure out where my next character comes from and how I paint it. This red of My Mom as the Guardian Angel of Angels and the phtalo blue of The Rain Angel looked good together.
My windows in the room I paint are tall and almost as wide as my 36″ by 48″ size canvases. I sit on my bed facing one of the windows and have my canvas I work on in front of it. The information I get from outside gets connected with the information I have on my canvases, so lines from my canvases end up extending into the lines outside my windows.
After the photo shoot I was able to draw some lines on the white area on the Turquoise Green Angel.
I filled one of the angel’s wings with phtalo blue.
I didn’t make much progress on that day, but liked one of my photos I took.
Of course this recent painting (Turquoise Green Angel) which I started at the beginning of the summer is still in front of me on the easel and is burning my eyes. It should have been finished a long time ago.
When the weather is not as nice as it is today my work on it will commence.
A reminder to self: Rome was not built in a day so my future exhibition also needs time to be prepared. I am still not sure how many canvases I should paint for it, but I guess I am going to get some answers as soon as I put more work into the paintings that are already in the process right now.
Originally written on 9-26-17
UNDER THE FLUORESCENT LIGHT 
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